Not smoking cigarettes has cut into my pacing and thinking time. I don't have to go outside so I just stay inside being productive thus eliminating empty space that would be filled with processing time. Not smoking isn't even really hard this time around. I could've said that about a lot of things. Nothing is ever even really hard this time, it's like I'm getting further away from myself. Angst is a lot less romantic when it's just about work or frustrating students or the dentist or whatever. Always something you can't really put your finger on. Most of the time I don't really give two shits.
Im always ashamed to admit how romantic I think smoking is.
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